The Path Towards the Light
My dog died today.
It was not by God’s choice, but my own
which sorrows me deeply. After seeing her deteriorate as the cancer takes her
breath, it is the only kind thing I can do.
Yes, there are specialists, and more
tests and more drugs. And I went that path for a while, until that path looked
dark and gloomy as well.
But Hannah does not deserve darkness. She deserves joy and
light, so I tearfully make my decision to do what is best for her, which is the
hardest path for me.
Rest in Peace Hannah my sweet girl. Rest in peace.
<3 I am so sorry you're hurting right now. It is so hard to make that decision, and I respect you for doing so. You made the right choice , she is at peace now. She had a wonderful life!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry Lynn. It's the hardest thing to do I know. My 17 year old cat died in my arms last year. He had squemous cell carcinoma. I didn't have to make the decision you had to because he was old and it was as if he knew. It feels as if a piece of you died too. {{tender hugs}} But like my cat, Hannah is at peace now and you did the right thing. <3
ReplyDeleteLynn, I'm so sorry. I know it's hard to lose a close friend. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteLynn, I'm so very sorry for your loss. Bless your heart and my heart crys for you. I understand where you are coming from. I had a cat, Joey, 13 yrs old...that was in this very same situation and we too had to go this route. The hardest most horrible, heart wrenching decision our family every had to make. But, it was the most humane thing we could do for him and we were all with him every step of his way on last journey. We also asked to have his ashes sent to us and we had a 'special' family burial service for him. It was what he deserved. He was a much loved member of our family...just a little shorter and furrier than the rest of us, but family nevertheless. Sending you *hugs* to help you remember only the good and let go of the rest. Hang in there!
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ReplyDeleteJust this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
ReplyDeleteWhen an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....
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I am so very sorry to hear about the loss of your four legged family member. I know all to well what you are feeling right now. I lost my tiny toy Rat Terrier a few weeks ago on December 19th, also due to cancer. It was one of the hardest decision of our lives, but we would not let Clarice suffer. We miss her terribly. This is going to be difficult for you but know you did the right thing for your little doggy. God bless you.
ReplyDeleteKindest regards,
Diane Melendez
Thank you all for your kind words. Trying to get used to the void.
ReplyDeleteLynn
This is the hardest thing to have to do. We went through the same thing with our baby, Lucy.
ReplyDeleteAfter she was gone I used think I would still hear her feet padding down the hallway after me, or sometimes I would see something out of the corner of my eye, and catch myself thinking it was her.
It is so hard. This was over a year ago, and I still feel a little pang in my heart when I think of her sweet face. But it does get better.
We have new babies in our lives right now, of course that helps a lot with not missing her...but we could never forget her.
Although I completely understand not wanting a new dog right away, I couldn't have done that because I would have felt like I was trying to replace her. Later on I realized, though, that it wasn't about replacing her. It was about making a NEW place in my heart for a NEW baby, not to fill the whole in my heart that Lucy left.
Anyway, I hope you are doing well! It is such a hard decision to have to make.